from Under the Veil

misfit? unfit?

vague and fake

in gloom I wake

I’m shattered I’m scattered

I’m hollow I’m battered

Disquieted, I’m straying

I sinned then

Now I’m praying

misfit? unfit?

I’m wired but tired

tired of this chase

constant disgrace

tired of being me

of trying to be somebody

ending up being someone

someone I’m not

forgot with what I set off

discarding what I got

misfit? unfit?

I’m narrow I’m shallow

Weakened, shaken

with this hurt

I’m wholly taken

pain disdain

efforts gone in vain

I deceived, I got defeated

Now I'm left with

no soul, just clay

I cheated then

My morals sway

misfit? unfit?

I’m beaten, I’m broken

Can anyone mend?

Can’t take it longer

when will this end

That what I forgot, when shall I learn

That what I desire, when shall I earn